The very fabulous Australian singer/songwriter Sia has delivered a major blow to her fans. When sitting down with Britain’s The Times, she divulged that she plans to quit writing music (for herself) after the release of her fourth album, We Are Born.
There are many singers, pop stars, and young starlets we are used to seeing deteriorate right before our eyes, but Sia has never been one of them. While she has become a very famous name in the music industry, and even more-so in her native Australia, she has managed to keep private and intimate details of her life private. That is, until she was outed by celebrity gossip blogger Perez Hilton for being a bisexual woman, which just opened the floodgates on the curiosity meter. Suddenly inundated with the prying eyes of the public, Sia has now gone on-record to account for how fame has negatively impacted her life.
“When I was outed by Perez Hilton as bisexual, I suddenly started being asked a lot of personal questions, which was really difficult. I’d had a relationship with a woman when I was 20, but nobody cared then. As it came at the same time as my fame, it made me withdraw, and I started having panic attacks. It was then that I was prescribed antidepressants – fame made me develop a panic disorder.
Sure, there are advantages (to fame): I can Tweet someone famous and they’ll usually Tweet back; I get given free stuff, but I can afford to buy it myself.
It’s no wonder Britney Spears was diagnosed as bipolar. my Winehouse wasn’t doing crack and heroin until she became successful. And then there’s Heath Ledger… People aren’t honest about the horrors of fame. The downsides are so overwhelming that, for me, there is no payoff.
Now my dream is to write songs for others, to have a baby, to have a routine… I want a normal job. I want to be who I was before all this.”
As a person who lives with clinical depression and struggles with anxiety to the point of moving to the country, away from most everyone I’ve ever known, I can’t blame Sia for taking stock of what really comes with fame and deciding to step out of the limelight.
Sure, I can’t blame her, but I am extremely bummed to hear that she won’t be putting music out herself anymore. I have loved her honest and beautiful voice since I first heard it, in 2004 when she released her second album, Colour The Small One.
Good luck Sia, with everything and anything you decide to do from this point forward.